My Religion:
I lost my religion a long time ago, I remember as a child that we wear going to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints it was a Mormon Church this was back around 1960's in Whittier, CA. as the collection plate was passed around I wondered where does it go? as a skinny kid i was never noticed anywhere so I followed it to a small room and was listening and watching as they talked about they can now pay some bills at home that are overdue, I watched them take money out of the trays and some went into a large box and some they put into their pants pockets..
The next week we arrived and there was a commotion in front of the church doors. A black family was trying to enter the church and the church Deacons and Minister would not allow them access. In 1960’s Black people was not allowed within the Mormon Church. My mom saw what was happening and informed them if they can’t enter then we will not enter; we all got back into the car and drove home and never returned.
You see my mom grew up in Saint Louis Missouri she had many black friends. She went on and was ordained as a Minister after 7 years of study. She founded The Puppets of Praise and traveled to put on Christian puppet shows for all ages. But I digress.
I seen Ministers and Priest drunk at the altar, swearing like a sailor. Those were the great preaching days.
Would a God fearing Priest. sin against God?
No? then ask the Catholic Priest’s that are in jail’s for raping church choir boys. The news is full of them and it continues today at other churches as well.
Prayer saves? It helped nobody I knew. My Dad, My Mom, My Stepdad, My niece, My pets, and all of those who was falling from the sky on that faithful day 1986 Cerritos Air Disaster that I was a Witness to. Or that Tuesday morning on September 11 2001, The Attach on the World Trade Center in New York, Lord knows I prayed so hard for this not to be true. I’ve come to the conclusion it’s all a scam and a lie, it’s all about Money and Power. They prey on the week minds of fools.
Example: The Peoples Temple, where the Minister Jim Jones talked 900 church members into to committing mass suicide.
Did you know that under the 501(c)(3) as long as you give 6% to the charity you are claiming to represent you can keep the rest and do with what you like with it, no questions asked.
So now I guess I am an atheist, I swear to God…
Lets be clear, I was dead but returned, I should have been killed may time over from being hit by cars while working for AAA - No Damage
Gas leak at BP Chemical plant I was working security at in Irvine., No Damage
Car Battery blowing up in my face. - No damage
Hit by vehicle 7 years old in the air as the earth jumped up and hit me. - No Damage
1 Major Stroke - No Damage
12 TIA's - No Damage.
My Guardian angel is working overtime even today.
More Proof:
I was about 14 years old and I was going with a church group whitter LDS on a campout at Joshua tree national park so I brought my backpack loaded as any good boy scout does. All the others planned to stay in the campers, that night i put up my pup tent climbed in and went to sleep. I awoke with large hole in my tent and a lot of people standing over me shouting HE'S Alive! They said that a Bear wondered into the camp site and entered my tent, everyone was making noise to chase the bear away, They thought I was dead for there was no movement in my tent, so they radioed for help and waited tell the sun came up for help to arrive, It was unknown to them if the Bear would return.. I never heard so many people say it was a miracle and they would never forget that night. I had no marks of any kind the bear must have thought I was dead.
I’m on my second Guardian Angel. My first one quit and is now in therapy.
Sep 19 2020 - After writing this I have made a life changing decision. It is out of pure respect and love for my guardian angel that I will never commit an act of any
form of suicide. It would not be polite. And it may piss them off, after doing all the work protecting my worthless ass over these years.
I may still suffer from depression but that's ok, I will take it one day at a time and let whatever comes.
We can handle it together.